Competitive games mostly, i loved Modern Warfare 2019 but it felt like the matchmaking was hell bent on making sure you had a terrible time and the spawn system was ridiculous, i never felt like i was in any kind of control playing it and that made it really frustrating to the point where i was screaming out loud, but the most damage i've caused was from playing Tekken.

I find playing against strangers online in fighting games to be extremely personal, my heart rate shoots through the roof and i start shaking, you put blood sweat and tears into learning the game then you lose to a button masher, or someone who is weirdly psychic, or just simply someone who is better than you and it's really demoralising, with Tekken 6 i broke an Xbox 360 headset and in the same session punched my leg in a way that bent my wrist and i couldn't use my hand properly for a week, Tag 2 was so amazing i generally had a great time but the rage came back with Tekken 7 and its much larger competitive scene, it pushed me harder and i had many instances where i boiled over, there's a large chip in my table from smashing a controller, in my biggest rage i sort of attacked the floor, rolling around screaming, elbowing, punching until i was very bruised, i felt worthless, and after raging i felt pathetic.

It's all very embarassing to talk about, but i want to because i never want to be like that again, i got angry at COD Vanguard for similar reasons as MW but i wasn't taking it as seriously, it was more just rolling my eyes as hard as humanly possible when BS happened, and i haven't really played a competitive game since then so i've been fine for a while.
I'm getting older, less capable, less patient, so i'm worried if i find another game to take seriously i'll be worse, or maybe i'll just give up faster but that won't feel good either, maybe i should just stay away from all competitive games :P.

Yeah, my controller took a fair few slaps during the many weeks i was glued to Elden Ring, even after multiple playthroughs.

I'm still not sure how my house is still intact when attempting to unlock God Mode in GoldenEye 64, reach the second last checkpoint with enough time to actually trigger the checkpoint in Call of Duty: Modern Warfare (not the remake), and... Survive any part of the bonus airplane level in Call of Duty: Modern Warfare (again, not the remake).

Or maybe I was angrier when playing Counter-Strike 1.5 and believing everybody cheats. I think I played more chess while dead than any Counter-Strike, back when Steam was disgustingly green (both figuratively and literally).

...I'm totally voting calm as a cucumber........ Right after I smash this desk.